We're all in this together.

at the same time i constantly tell myself not to think too much about it, i was equally scared to step into uni this afternoon. reason being, i know i wouldn't be able to be as strong as i want to be when it comes to dealing with things like this. turns out, it actually felt ten times worse deep down inside. i don't even know what word to use to describe how i felt when the moment i was dreading finally came. it sucks so badly. for the first time i'm feeling this terrible, so in despair. i want to think positive and i want to be good again and i hope i can accept and face this in a better way. when i talk to people about it i feel better, but once i start to think about it the same feeling returns. i'm supposed to be helping you what's wrong with me. chatting with you on msn again was different. i miss the familiarity so badly even i cannot imagine i would be so. all the more, if i'm feeling so terrible i wonder how is it for you to face everything and everyone.

let's just start from now. chill right?

Pale

The world seems not the same,

Though i know nothing has changed.

it's all my state of mind,

I can't leave it all behind.

Have to stand up to be stronger. 


Have to try to break free

From the thoughts in my mind.
Use the time that I have,
I can't say goodbye,
Have to make it right.
Have to fight, cause I know

In the end it's worthwhile,

That the pain that I feel slowly fades away.

It will be alright.

I know, should realize

Time is precious, it is worthwhile.

Despite how I feel inside,

Have to trust it'll be all right.

Have to stand up to be stronger.

Oh, this night is too long.

Have no strength to go on.

No more pain, I'm floating away.

Through the mist see the face

Of an angel, who calls my name.

I remember you're the reason I have to stay.

how i wish everything was just a dream :'(