>.< super scary dream!!!

omgg i just had a super bad dream! so scary to the extent that i need to write it out here, too bad my sis isn't at home to listen to me rant about the dream right now :(

it must be the effect of studying management @@ i got too tired reading Daft so thought i should get a nice short nap. who knows i'll get such a scaryyy dream T_T 

it's so terrible, and i couldn't really wake up from it, so it went on and even until just now my heart was beating slightly faster :/

out of nowhere in the dream, i was viewing some random video on facebook... then super strange i suddenly appeared in a super dark and gloomy underground carpark with a lot of cars but no normal people in it. 

something like this! but with more carssss @@

there was this police car-like truck with people holding guns in it hunting for me and a few other people, whom i have no idea who they are at all.. we kept hiding behind those cars in the carpark to avoid them.. so scared that we'll be spotted..

the truck! but it's so not a police car, more like no justice car, hunt for innocent people for no reason! and please add some ganas looking people with guns.

but at the same time there were those gun people who're not in the truck too, means they're also moving from car to car like us. superrr terrifying it's so hard to describe, but anytime in the dream i might bump into the gun man and get shot  x____x

exactly how the gun people looked!! 

so scaryyyyy! but the whole dream was just running and hiding until i woke up still feeling scared @_@

a picture of Ador to reduce the creepy feeling left behind by the dream~

:) so cute! so much better.

after all, i think to take nap halfway through studying Management isn't a great idea. as for the facebook video, i have no idea what's that for.

sometimes i wonder, do dreams really reflect what our minds have been busy thinking about? x)

seriously serious.

in 9 days time,
5 papers to scribble on,
less than 2 days for each subject,
more than just 5 books to devour.


so much pressure that i'm giving myself,
as what the lecturers have said,
the papers won't be easy,
in other words, tough.


essay questions all the way,
i hope my hand coordinates well with my brain,
got to think as fast as i write,
and write as fast as i can think.


already breaking into cold sweat,
what more the freezing air conditioning in the exam hall,
i hope my pen's ink won't solidify.


in the coming days,
i'm going to study like there's no tomorrow,
because if i don't,
i won't pass with flying colours,
i want these colours very badly this time.


the amount of effort's what determines the results,
this is a fact i know better than anything else.


please just stay focus and not let the brain wander around,
time is running out.


good luck to my friends and myself,

we can do it. 

♥

on Father's Day itself, pa, ma and jie had to leave us to attend my cousin's wedding in Perak. too bad the dinner's going to be on Monday night, or else we would be able to all go back together!

and thanks to all the homework and assignment, i almost wanted to forget about the idea of making a father's day card for daddy. but when i woke up on Sunday, i saw mommy they all packing stuff, getting ready to leave... i suddenly felt that i should really make something for daddy because there are some things i wanna tell him through words.

so i started digging into my colour papers to see what i could make. prepared a draft of what i was going to write first, then cut cut paste paste and ta-daa i made a father's day tree! am quite happy with the end product although i did it in a rush.



every year, i make cards for daddy and mommy on special days, but every time, i'll have this problem of "how to give it to them?" i personally prefer to give them a little bit of surprise rather than just passing it to them and the normal hughug.

this time around, i really ran out of idea and was short of time. out of desperation, i tip toed out to the dining room and left the tree beside my dad's phone when he was just sitting in the living room. (impossible he doesn't see me!) before i even managed to turn, i heard daddy said "deng deng deng~" haha i didn't know what to do but laugh.

so he came and took the card, and said, "thank youu. i thought your exams are coming soon, did you spend a lot of time making this?" i almost said i just started making it this morning eeks.

then mommy came down too, and she said "ohh, your card is so special, nicer than mine!" i think i know the reason, mother's day card this year was made at 3+am. a bit unconscious already.



as usual, before mommy left, she kept reminding us must remember to do blablabla, don't forget to wake up in the morning for school and all. i find that very nice to hear. :) daddy also told us must take ar blabla...


maybe, just maybe, they never realise we're not that small anymore...



but yeah, sis and i are missing them already (until cannot concentrate studying) although they're only away for 2 days :O thank you gorgor for sacrificing your time fetching us around. and your cooking is really not bad! (Y)



♥♥♥ :) pa :) ma :) jie :) gor :) me :) mei ♥♥♥

I'm lucky.

Today seems just like any of my other weekdays, with the very routine tutorials, lectures, stayed back for assignments and blabla...

But whoah i got really amazed surprised shocked fascinated by a friend's life, which is well very very different from what any of us are doing. It's so hard to believe that i am still finding it hard to accept everything that i was told of.

During management, Mr. Shannon actually mentioned one of the journals i wrote for the assignment. The one on managers in action where i wrote about our trip to A&W for waffles.. Now i feel like reading that piece of journal again cause i don't exactly remember what i wrote then. He actually had dreams after reading that journal haha, funnay.



On the way home, mommy told me about her call to my little cousins in Penang yesterday night. i could tell mommy's not feeling good about it. i felt very sad too. The world is sometimes quite unfair huh? how come bad guys get to live while some of the good people don't? gaah, i don't want to think about it. From the bottom of my heart, i really hope you and you can cope well with your studies and be happy.




I still want to live up to 100 years old.                                                                
don't stop believing.

Beyond words... ♥

♥This is going to be a birthday post specially dedicated to my dearest sister, Siew Jun a.k.a. the Mad Bee.♥

I hope you had a happy day and i hope everyday's going to be as good for you. 

I'm feeling kinda bad now cause i didn't have much time to talk to you on your birthday, sorry that i'm always so busy with work lately that i don't have the time to listen to your stories about school and your friends and your weird dreams (do tell me about dreams that have me in it though, i'm interested!). 

Now i don't even know what's happening to Soo Yin or Hui Li or Rou En, i don't know who's falling in love with the bxxxx again. You got to give me an intensive update during my break okay? 

Come to think of it, you're in almost 98% of my life. I know there were times i was really wrong, i used to tell you who to friend with and who not to... that was seriously worse than terrible, i know you hated me for that, even i myself can't imagine i was so evil to teach you that. 

But because we're sisters and will always be the best sisters forever, we tend to forget about the mistakes very easily and instead, embrace the good times. 

Sorry for those empty promises made too. Say what i can teach you chemistry every Saturday, who knows when i'm already so tired with my own work, i abandoned that promise. Do ask me anything that you don't understand alright? i'll try to teach you. 

Anyways, i really like teaching you a lot. Remember we used to play teacher-student and i made you do all the extra homework, hit you with rotan, gave you A star star star. oh gosh, i hope you enjoyed those moments. 

The list of crazy things we did together is a never ending one, really. 

Remember how we used to pretend to drive using a round basket as the steering wheel, water bottle as the gear and made the sound of signal lights on our own. And those shi-shing moments are really OH LOL. Where to find people who use strings / blankets as imaginary doll hair, swing here and there also fun. And we used to fight for the prettier Barbie, better cooking pan, handsomer Lego man... 

I forgot whose idea was it to "stay" under the table with limited space for hours, to use the curtains to make a "house" with confined space and stay in there. We'll never ever do all these again you know... 

Never ever going to "collect shells" when we bathe together (no worries, i don't remember seeing you naked at all, i hope you don't either!) . And we could actually fit in the red bath tub thingy together last time and soak ourselves until the skin turns into ah-poh skin.

We used to sleep with pa & ma and would cry in the middle of the night cause we're afraid we might lose them. @@ i wonder what made us thought so...

It's really fun to draw with you, cause my drawing always sucks and looks funny as compared to yours. We actually had our own drawing books with table of content some more. Naming the entire 'P Family' with you was very much fun too! We are the ones who gave all the soft toys their characteristics, made Pooh so annoying, Pursy so manja, Pooky so cute and all. Now we hardly even touch them. 

Talking about the present, the things we do have changed 360 degrees or even more! Less of those crazy activities, more to talking nonsense and laugh until stomach pain, tears come out. A bit too much la sometimes, must learn to control ourselves. Shouldn't be so retarded anymore. 

It's even better when we happen to sleep at the same time (the chances are lower now i always sleep so late), talk non-stop until we finally made a deal to keep quiet and sleep, then after a while either of us would call each other's name to check if the other person's still awake. If yes, continue talking again. I kinda like the never ending conversations at night when we can just shut our sleepy eyes and talk about everything. 

If i'm not wrong we started passing notes across each other's table because we didn't want mommy to know that we're talking in the study room... if i didn't remember wrongly la. But now it's like my hobby to leave you random notes (also thanks to brother bear who supplied me with so much paper!). 

It feels great to be writing all these although i should be doing my econs tutorial. Now that you've turned SIXTEEN, it only means you're another step closer to whatever you wish to accomplish on your own in the future. I'm sure there's a long list too. Enjoy and appreciate your sixteenth like you're never going to have it again seriously. Everyday should be precious! 

HAPPY BIRTHDAY Bee... 

I picked out some memorable pictures you might have not seen for a long time. View with pleasure~

Your first birthday party organised by me. Look at you, so young & cute last time!! Well, glad it turned out to be fun for all your friends. Pity Kai Liang though, the only guy among you all. 

This.... was some awards giving ceremony back in Yuk Chai. Pa and i went back to give support and take pictures for you. You still look extremely cute! So small girl~

Oh and this! If you don't remember, you should view the other pictures in the same album. *ROFL* very funny pictures taken with that four prizes, you were quite cooperative too. Bee is smart :D 

A decent picture with you :)

Ohya, your beaver present's going to be belated, wait for it patiently ya! i have something for you below... 

Before that, the other day when you wanted to feed the stray dog and i stopped you cause i said giving it that little bit of meat wouldn't help much. 

I continued to think about it after that and realised it's not whether the meat can help much or not, but i'm just not as kind as you, or maybe your love for animals is far stronger than mine. 

Look at what you've done for the stray kittens in our backyard... 

you built a shelter for them using the Amway magazines cover! If i was the kitten, i would be so so so touched. You know, the little things you do for the animals sometimes seem unreasonable but i can feel that you really really just feel like helping them, even if it's only a tiny little help.

                             

And for that, i really salute you for having such a kind heart © towards the animals, including both the fortunate and less fortunate ones.

                            

As mentioned, here comes your "presents"! All the ones you like like :D

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#1 Your favourite beaver with waffle tail!

#2 Siberian Husky with blue eyes! (looks kinda fierce to me)

#3 Furry Furry golden retriever!!

#4 Baby seal that is totally round! 

#5 Mr. Owl!! (i still don't get why you like an owl -.-)

Happy with your "presents"?

:)

Another thing we both like, ELMO with the orange nose! 

"elmo wants to wish you a happy birthday. uh-huh uh-huh!" :P

And something that YOU like A LOT, but not me! GROVER with the pink nose!

*shows the grover face*

It's getting late, and also too long! Stay cute as always like the BEE above okay? :)

i'll be the leaf that protects you... 

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I love you more than you love me. 

Another day closer to the end...

Last lecture for business stats today.

It's kinda hard to believe that i won't be listening to Mr. Derek's lectures anymore! Won't have the chance to feel blur or left behind in his lectures anymore. Won't be laughing over his humorous statistics jokes anymore.. uugh not to say he's very good at making jokes but he says things like "my england is very powderful"! Interesting much. In today's survey, i actually so intelligently filled in 90% for the category - i recognized humor in the lectures, but totally failed to recall any good examples!

It either means my memory's deteriorating or there really isn't much humor in his lectures. *please be the latter* although i really feel that my brain's not functioning as well compared to last time...and it's impossible i can get a whole new fresh juicy brain to start with, got to bear with what i have for the rest of my life!

Talking about business stats, the assignment is seriously making us see stars. I hope it'll turn out fine eventually somehow and also hope to get it done as soon as possible so there's time for revision.

Everything's up to us to decide, risks to be taken. Another problem, still grasping the skills to lie with statistics.

one of the many pictures outside Mr. Derek's room xD

aah, just the book we need.

P.E.R.S.E.V.E.R.E.

I can't really wait till the holidays.. One last assignment and i'm done with all the assignments for this 14 weeks long semester, at least. 

Final exams in less than a month's time o______o and i don't feel good about it. Ms Tana's tutorial every Wednesday's like a painful reminder that wakes me up from all my beautiful dreams thinking there's still time, there's still time.

I feel so relieved for my dear CAL buddies that they're done & over with A2, all is left now is to plan for what's coming ahead... It's so nice to be able to chat with them again after so long! I miss miss miss everyone so much now. Pei Ying, the call from you made me feel great, sorry that i mistaken you for Alina though! You sounded so much like her haha.  

There are so many things in my head that i want to do now, i hope the one month break would be enough. The other night, after i was done with my i-forgot-which-assignment i had a real good time looking through the the pictures i have. So amazing, they made me smile naturally. 

Pictures from everywhere in no particular order, 

One random supper at McD, where we left our jakun scream again. :D 

One incomplete x-group outing, had a tour around the outside of One U :)

One awesome night with the H.A., where we met the most gigantically humongous heart & also the cutest banana ever! :D 

One memorable trip to Sunny's home in Malacca with the Amigos :D

One very cool surprise party for PY, her superb siblings actually prepared games like musical chair for us. Presents given to winners too! How cool is that? :D 

One last supposedly Malam but Hari Bakat for us, chicken dance all the way :D

One friend turned 17, miss those Form2 moments with Dorie :)

One crazy moment in the cable car on our way up to Genting, we need another round of this :)

One picture that reminds me of how great my teachers were, especially Pn Lee SK, the only reason why i could survive add maths without tuition :)

One most successful surprise for our dear Qing Xian, i'm in love with the swimming pool, so calm and peaceful especially at night :) 

One great countdown at DPC, the playground was the best! :D 

One badminton day :) i personally like this picture so it's here. 

One strange trip to Batu Pahat! The whole idea of going there to help the flood victims turned into some school visiting trip :)

One big reunion with the primary classmates, totally not an easy task to get so many of them :D

One snowy day in M'sia. Seriously the best picture my camera ever produced! YAYS to sleepovers. :D

One great surprise i didn't see coming. Happy like nobody's business :)

One day trip to the National Science Center. The place i knocked my head twice on the aquarium's glass, i just wanted to get a closer look at the fishies. :D

One funny surprise for Huei-Wen. I see a bear. Where? *points* There! What a game :D

Great moments. Like hw said, must P E R S E V E R E... which means, i've got to really study hard + study harder + study even harder for now!

Sister's birthday coming in two days, Father's Day on the 20th! ©©