*fingers crossed

really hope tomorrow's gonna turn out fine for us woohoo! it's just you and me and me and you and us on our own. looking at the piles of previous year and hardclose working papers scattered all over the table.... i really feel ze pressuuuuuuure :( la la la should go sleep so little brain can function better! sigh sorethroat why you so sore?!?!

on a random note, i think audit is giving me opportunities to pick up my survival skills in this concrete jungle.

at times like this, i miss you a hundred million thousand times moooore...

thank God eyes come with tear glands.

"You can't change the past, and you don't know what the future holds. All you can do is cherish the gift that they call the present."

shattered

never never ever imagined everything that's happening now to even be real. maybe, i wasn't good enough at expressing everything i wish you knew... maybe even if i did, it wouldn't be making any difference. after all, it doesn't really matter anymore. as long as you're happier. 

dear jelly, if it's really something you have so much faith in, just go ahead and bang wall if you ever feel like giving up.

and i wonder if i ever cross your mind,

for me it happens all the time.

The more you don't want to think about it, the more it comes to you..

rawr whyy soooo! before i can finally sleep, first thing when i open my eyes in the morning, the guy's ringtone in office, after work, the stuff i read about the new client, basically everything everywhere! dear senior, please give me more work tomorrow and ask me to stay back or whatever so my mind will be occupied for as long as possible! thought i made it clear to myself cannot think the emo way! uugh it's not even working! easier said than done much! like pets hotel...is there a heart hotel? i need to abandon my heart for a whileeee!

Sleep early please!

cannot sleep how? sometimes i'm glad there's this silent space here for me to scribble my thoughts whenever i find it hard to fall asleep *maybe i should try counting sheep one day x). been doing nothing much these couple of days other than sorting out some thoughts but it can be so tiring. emotionally tired haha. i wonder if there's ever like a bestest best way to handle things. is there a way i can possibly find out which action is best before i give it a try? i figured these feelings all grew out of fear, fearful that what i'm about to do would only make things more awkward than i want it to. then they start giving me a headache like literally headache that also comes with a tinge of heartache. if only simplicity could come by more easily. whatever it is, the things beyond my control, there's nothing i can do. i always fancy truthfulness in everything we do though. so i guess nothing can go too wrong if you're truthful enough, cause that's just...you. to feel sad or whatever is one thing, everything else around still goes on like normal, except i've learned to cope with it better. just wanna take whatever that happens with an open heart... i rather be happy! and my greedy wish of hoping that everyone will always be as happy as they can be. there'll definitely be times when the not-so-happy things are in our way,  but what are they really? are we just thinking too much that we continue to get trapped in it? what's the way out then?


do you know it never fails to make me smile whenever i see you smile :)