SIGH.

i feel so crazy nowadays with all the mixed and confused feelings and thoughts and everything not quite pleasant that's happening around. let this stop okay? it's really hurting a lot of people. i kinda think i easily get influenced by the things and people around me, and whatever it is will just keep appearing in my mind... until it's all good and over with. but sigh, not everything can be as simple as how we wish it could be.

i really don't know what more to think or feel, just let things be as time goes by and give the right response when it's here. from the bottom of my heart, i really really really seriously hope that things will go back to normal as soon as it can be for all the friends whom i really care for. it might not be easy, but i just know that you can do it.

*

surprisingly, the meeting today was quite different from what i thought. expected to see more people to be in the core committee, and when i saw only four of us i just started wondering why i was picked. it's a natural reaction to think like that heh. 

but everyone's friendliness soon took over, and it was funny how the advisors wanted the four of us to pick the post we wanted among ourselves. after one round of explanation on each of the posts, we stared at each other and laughed. one guy even suggested to draw lots since everyone's being indecisive. then another of the advisor encouraged us to choose what we think we're more capable of doing, which was almost as hard. so it took a while before each of us were assigned with a post. somehow, i ended up in the marketing branch. :) and well, i'm actually quite excited over how everything's going to be like.

*MORE POSITIVE AURA PLEASE! 

Do you feel cold and lost in desperation,

You build up hope, but failure's all you've known, 

Remember all the sadness and frustration,

And let it go, let it go.