if i could write to santa for a christmas gift this year, there is only one thing i'm asking for. and i am willing to do anything for that wish to come true. anything. 

Words that don't belong anywhere.

sometimes even i wonder to myself if it's all going to be worth it. then i realised it doesn't really matter, the outcome... whether it's worth it or not, whether it'll turn out like how i wish it could be isn't really that important after all, cause i know no matter what, i'll still give it a try. 

have been staring at that rectangle piece of yellow-coloured paper for a while now and what's running through my mind can't seem to be explicitly put into words. when i finally managed to gather enough courage to let you know everything that was on my mind, your replies weren't what i was hoping to see, neither what i expected. and the next day, everything was still the same as before. 

like how people say time heals, i guess the reverse is true too? time also kills. some things start to fade with time, and sometimes, these are things we can never get back once it's gone. 

if there comes this chance, i really hope to know how you felt, what were you thinking when you decided to let it all go and never look back. 

let's hope a night's sleep would tell me what's best to be written on that card for you. 

One day closer.

"It has been said that I believe in the power of positive thinking. In fact, I believe in the power of negative thinking. I happen to be very conservative in business. I always go into a deal anticipating the worst. If you plan for the worst - if you can live with the worst - the good will always take care of itself." - Donald Trump


after all, nothing will ever always be happily ever after like in fairy tales, but if we're just able to have faith and endure the toughest moments, we'll be surprised with what's coming after.

one last paper to go on Monday. and then it marks the end of yet another wonderful chapter in my life. definitely an unforgettable one that taught me a whole lot.


right now, i'm just feeling incomplete without you. 

Some memories are for a lifetime

i feel like going to somewhere with a piece of big open ground, so i can lie down and watch the stars in the night sky... wonder what they've got to tell me.