Tuesday, February 28, 2012

this amazing little place we live in. little cause we're nothing compared to the Universe. amazing cause... it's simply too amazing don't you think? so many humans, each with a different story to tell, different dreams to achieve; so many creatures other than humans, ever wonder what they really think about us humans? why did we think it's alright to take their lives, destroy their homes, and build this world into a place we wish to see? actually, where are we all heading to?


if only humans were a little less complex. perhaps this place would be filled with a lot more happiness?

less painful moments, less tears to shed, more truthfulness, more of what we truly wish to see. 

Wednesday, February 22, 2012

Unexpectedly

peeped into the laboratory at client's place today to discover those familiar looking beakers, conical flasks, colourful liquids and all sorts of apparatus lying on the table.. aah i kinda miss them :)

Tuesday, February 21, 2012

*fingers crossed

really hope tomorrow's gonna turn out fine for us woohoo! it's just you and me and me and you and us on our own. looking at the piles of previous year and hardclose working papers scattered all over the table.... i really feel ze pressuuuuuuure :( la la la should go sleep so little brain can function better! sigh sorethroat why you so sore?!?!

on a random note, i think audit is giving me opportunities to pick up my survival skills in this concrete jungle.

at times like this, i miss you a hundred million thousand times moooore...

Saturday, February 18, 2012


thank God eyes come with tear glands.

Saturday, February 11, 2012

"You can't change the past, and you don't know what the future holds. All you can do is cherish the gift that they call the present."

Friday, February 10, 2012

shattered

never never ever imagined everything that's happening now to even be real. maybe, i wasn't good enough at expressing everything i wish you knew... maybe even if i did, it wouldn't be making any difference. after all, it doesn't really matter anymore. as long as you're happier. 

dear jelly, if it's really something you have so much faith in, just go ahead and bang wall if you ever feel like giving up.


and i wonder if i ever cross your mind,
for me it happens all the time.

Thursday, February 9, 2012

The more you don't want to think about it, the more it comes to you..

rawr whyy soooo! before i can finally sleep, first thing when i open my eyes in the morning, the guy's ringtone in office, after work, the stuff i read about the new client, basically everything everywhere! dear senior, please give me more work tomorrow and ask me to stay back or whatever so my mind will be occupied for as long as possible! thought i made it clear to myself cannot think the emo way! uugh it's not even working! easier said than done much! like pets hotel...is there a heart hotel? i need to abandon my heart for a whileeee!

Wednesday, February 8, 2012

Sleep early please!

cannot sleep how? sometimes i'm glad there's this silent space here for me to scribble my thoughts whenever i find it hard to fall asleep *maybe i should try counting sheep one day x). been doing nothing much these couple of days other than sorting out some thoughts but it can be so tiring. emotionally tired haha. i wonder if there's ever like a bestest best way to handle things. is there a way i can possibly find out which action is best before i give it a try? i figured these feelings all grew out of fear, fearful that what i'm about to do would only make things more awkward than i want it to. then they start giving me a headache like literally headache that also comes with a tinge of heartache. if only simplicity could come by more easily. whatever it is, the things beyond my control, there's nothing i can do. i always fancy truthfulness in everything we do though. so i guess nothing can go too wrong if you're truthful enough, cause that's just...you. to feel sad or whatever is one thing, everything else around still goes on like normal, except i've learned to cope with it better. just wanna take whatever that happens with an open heart... i rather be happy! and my greedy wish of hoping that everyone will always be as happy as they can be. there'll definitely be times when the not-so-happy things are in our way,  but what are they really? are we just thinking too much that we continue to get trapped in it? what's the way out then?


do you know it never fails to make me smile whenever i see you smile :)

Tuesday, February 7, 2012

Coincidence.

lurve it how things happen so coincidentally. something that i've never came across, just when i first realised its existence this morning and then i see it again unexpectedly. feels so...magical :)


and i wonder what daddy wished for before he blew the candles... 

i've a strong feeling it has got something to do with us :P just like how he's always so selfless and only wants the best for us. those endless support from him means so much to me. especially during those stressful exam times, he'll always drop by the study room when he's back from work and ask if today's paper was okay. and almost all the time, i'll tell him it's okayy. simple things like this can totally make my day. and it's so cute to see how daddy interacts with Ador haha. he'll scold him for munching on his plants, but at the same time still pluck Ador's favourite plant for him to eat and gets most worried if any cats were to come near Ador. grateful for a dad who showers the family with so much love and care. nothing more i would ask for. 

out of gan-cheongness.. totally forgot to poke the "happy birthday" words wuwu.


some songs describe my feelings so explicitly, better than i can even put them into words... 

Monday, February 6, 2012

just a dream.

wonder if i should be happy or sad to have such honest dreams. no matter what i've been trying to think or make myself think in the day, my dreams still bring the subconscious part of me back to reality. which, come to think of it, can be rather ironic -_-

tomorrow's got to be a happy day, daddy's birthday + chap goh mei :) 

hm.. sleep sleep! :) 

Sunday, February 5, 2012

对不起 我却没捉紧你

Don't you think Stitch is really cute? :D 


got reminded of how cute STITCH is after looking at wan chin's wallpaper for a week. so sad that i only get to be with them for a week... plus i only gotten closer to the client's staff, but won't get to see them anymore after this. definitely gonna miss the weird car park and elevators at the client's place too! and our Boss who is positive enough to make me realise that it's not even helping if i continue to be sad myself. 

for an entirely new engagement with no previous year's file to refer to, tight timeline, not-the-nicest manager of all, plus the scariest partner... it just complicates the audit a lot more. but i truly admire how Boss takes it as a challenge that will eventually only bring him more good - experience and sense of achievement. 



statutory audit on my last day with Boss was pretty good. they had this policy of "letting them handle everything" so all i had to do was fill in a form and the photostating job (which i think can be quite stressful) is left to them. teehee. since the secretarial office was located at the Gardens' north tower, Boss decided to do some window shopping at midvalley.. went around a few toy shops looking for those very cool looking transformers models and stumbled upon resident evil's new trailer. gosh it looked so real i almost thought it was real humans in the game! *jakun-ness heh.

headed back to office later on to pick wan chin up before going to client's place again. the only rewarding thing to be staying late at the client's has got to be the beautiful night view. it just feels very nice looking at the kl tower, twin towers and all the other tinier buildings light up in the dark. 



one of the important traits i have learned so far? to be adaptive! 

been with three different seniors to three different clients. and they are all so different! first senior was soft spoken and gentle, and her work is always very neat so i learned to be neat with the templates from her too. second senior's a malay so we have malay food for lunch most of the time, and she listens to malay radio station on our way to Port Klang - we listen to this Ombak Rindu song almost everyday until i kinda like it already it's such a sad sad song, and she tells me about her hubby and baby most of the time so it was quite funny haha i don't usually have friends telling about all these, but i got very used to listening to her stories *still need to find out if baby's a twin a girl or a boy!* heeh. and the third senior who always talks like a boss, so we call him Boss is the first one who's telling me how much he's seeing the good things about the job, and since Boss smokes, we'll sit at the smoking area during lunch, almost didn't feel like breathing the first time we had lunch together, but how can? Lol. so kinda got used to it too.

fourth senior contacted me through email already, and he's got so many different ways of saying HI, every email different hi. hope it'll be fun with the new client!



never knew i could feel so sad until i suddenly woke up from sleep last night and all i knew was that i felt like crying. but i think it's alright to feel sad and not suppress it heh. i'm amazed how sadness can reach a maximum point and turn into positivity instead :) you know it's not that super happy feeling but you feel okay because you're coping well with the sadness. just don't want to lose too much of myself and i will really really treasure all the nice people around me because they will not always be there. 



:)

Wednesday, February 1, 2012

T.T

i don't know what to do laaa!
i'm so lousy :(