There You'll Be

It really terrifies me sometimes to think about how time flies. it's funny how i vaguely remember making this promise to myself, for me to work hard and try my best this semester... and then before i even realised i wasn't working hard enough, the exams were here already, and that's pretty much how the semester ended. just like that. but again it can be quite amazing how so many things can happen or change within such a short period of time...whether it's for the better or not. things never really stay the same.

after what i would consider the shortest semester break ever (which lasted for merely two days! over the weekend to be precise), came ze internship i was looking forward to. looking forward to a good experience of how working life is going to be like, meeting new people and learning new stuff we'll never be able to learn from textbooks... other than that, i am actually very reluctant to be away from Uni for threeee months. it can seem so short yet so long at the same time -_- ironic much.


SO how has internship been so far?

coming into the end of the second week of internship, i wouldn't say i'm loving it very much... like i don't get the superrrrr yippaaaaay feeling about work and i pretty much don't feel the ooohm to open my eyes and get out of bed every morning. kinda sad that it's going this way, i was supposed to be looking forward to it and enjoying it a lot. on one side i'm telling myself maybe it's too early to even judge, so KEEP GOING! at the end of the day i might be the first person to say YAY when it comes to auditing; then there's this other part in me that keeps getting bigger as days pass, this little voice that speaks ohno. is this REALLY what i enjoy doing? what happens if i stay in an audit firm for two years after graduating? is it going to do a lot of good in the future? two years ain't short. especially with all the "appreciate every single day" thingies. will i be dreading the days if i were to spend two years doing something i don't quite enjoy? what are the alternatives? are they going to be good as well? aaah man what to doooo?! well, that's the number one thing bothering me after two weeks of my life in Audit P.

that aside, i've also learned not to be too proud of myself as a VACATION TRAINEE :P Lol the other day when my seniors were exchanging name cards with the client, he automatically turned to me expecting me to give him my name card too (aiya...should have given him my SIFE name card heh jk! so many moreeee what am i going to do with them hm..). and so very automatically, i replied with a "I'm sorry i don't have one cause i'm only a vacation trainee". then as we were leaving the place my senior gently nudged me and reminded me not to tell that i'm a trainee. reason being, they might give me special treatment and not want to layan me when i ask for documents. so i can be called NEW, but never a TRAINEE! weee~

number 3! it can really be quite a challenging task to make the most out of doing NOTHING but watch the clock ticks. there were days when my senior and i felt so helpless not knowing what to do cause it takes so much effort to retrieve that one little file. and without the file, there's nothing we could do. so i ended up reading "today's headlines"... i was really reading at first, then i couldn't help to be carried away by what's happening in the surrounding. ended up eavesdropping and trying to see if the people around me are actually enjoying their jobs. but i heard people SIGH, and i heard one guy say "I DON'T KNOW HOW TO DO AH!". hehe how encouraging! then i went on reading the managing partner's blog which was pretty interesting to see how the employees commented on his posts. hm...here's one of the comments that caught my attention~

pretty awesome :) friendships developed in school life are just priceless...

Can we really be the same in office and in school?
Perhaps we can see each other without differences back in the school days because we have common goals which are to study well, play well and succeed well in our examinations. We used to help each other with home works, revision and even to the extent to understand each other differences. More than that, a friendship developed which could even last a life time. We were just more than a schoolmate or classmate but true friend and true team mate.


Not forgetting our beloved teachers who have the sincere passion and will to actually guide and teach us.


However, can we really have these traits back in the office? Do we have these common goals or do we really work as a true friend and true team mate? Do we really sincerely help each other and guide each other for the common good?


Just for your reflection on what is actually happening in the working world due to the intense competition and selfish cultures that we have built on all these years...People used to believe it's a dogs eat dogs world out there but nowadays, people is actually applying it because belief will lead to action and subsequently leads to "it's a right thing to do"

at times when there's really nothing to do, i stone quite a lot too. and when i stone my mind just happily wanders off thinking about everything, the past present and future. thinking about the people i miss so badly~

LAST one before this post gets too long. working adults can be very young at heart too! the other day when we were having lunch (seafood at Port Klang!) with four of the clients, two of them who are already looking soooo matured, actually took out their canggih touch screen phones and snap snap pictures of their drinks! LOL cause three of them happened to order watermelon juice, some yellow juice, and this green juice! so they happily arranged the cups in the order of the traffic light's colour and got very excited over it. hehe what i thought only childish kid like me would do, but no, they're doing it too! ^^v

that's about it! and of course a lot more on how boring audit terms i've read about from the textbook magically come to life when we really have to apply it. application is really a different thing altogether.


O_O second last day of Year 2011?!?! *rubs eyes checks calender again*

just because

action speaks louder than words.

we'll never know...

will we? some things are just so impossible to guess. hoping to have more time each day.... feels like there're so many things to do but so little time to possibly squeeze all of them into the schedule. how i wish you could tell what's on my mind... then maybe i'd be able to tell what's on yours too.

i don't know....

high high!

"Truly great friends are hard to find, difficult to leave, and impossible to forget." - green balloon

and some people are just irreplaceable like that. :)

many happies cause.....

nay, no need reason to be happy hee :P

are we still good?

something somewhere just doesn't feel right

this time around i'm completely clueless what went wrong

maybe i'm wrong somewhere sometimes

i would really accept it if you're willing to tell me

perhaps there is something that can be done?

or am i just thinking too much?

hmm i really don't quite know

don't want to be thinking too much either

but i can't seem to get it off my mind since exams started

or maybe even before that

each time i try to treat it as if everything's still fine

i find my heart aching more

and i wonder how you feel

just want everything to be good again.
or maybe to you this is nothing at all
then it goes back to me thinking too much

some of the things are pretty obvious

but they're equally subtle at the same time

so i end up not knowing how to feel

olrights, back to audit.
very sad actually :'( 

How do i say this...

so overwhelmed by the feelings in me,

i actually feel them so much more than i seem to be able to put them into words,

when it all happened so unexpectedly...

i vividly remember how i couldn't believe my ears for the first time,

how my mind literally went blank halfway through a phone conversation,

how i felt like my feet weren't touching the ground anymore,

how those words continued to play in my mind for a long time for the rest of the day,

...and it all happened on that very day.

the day that also signifies the start of this something special in my life,

i've always thought of it as something really, really precious,

and therefore not anything that would come by easily,

so i told myself if it ever did,

i'm going to appreciate it with all my heart,

now that it is really happening to me,

i realised i didn't even have to remind myself to appreciate it,

the feeling just grows from within,

very naturally.

thank you for these 31 little yet amazing days,

this one special month,

will always remain this special.

every nothing, is a something in disguise.

And it's the time of ze year again!

sophisticated story books make sophisticated kids.

if only textbooks looked like this one here :P

ehehe tired eyes from feeling super guilty that we're not doing assignment/studying -o-

so glad to have you nerding with me this time around!

usually you'll already be catching butterflies by the time i have finals in Dec :P

HAPPY: 

last assignment of the sem has finally been submitted! catch a point??? i prolly wouldn't have survived it if it wasn't for you though. thank you so the berry much! :3

NOT-SO-HAPPY: 

exams coming in less than two weeks' time! and it's no easy peasy lemon squeezy yo :( cannot give up, hence, the only option - stuuuudy hard ler!

This is my wish for you:

"Comfort on difficult days, 

smiles when sadness intrudes, 

rainbows to follow the clouds, 

laughter to kiss your lips, 

sunsets to warm your heart, 

hugs when spirits sag, 

beauty for your eyes to see, 

friendships to brighten your being, 

faith so that you can believe, 

confidence for when you doubt, 

courage to know yourself, 

patience to accept the truth, 

love to complete your life."

                                                                       

                                                          - Winnie The Pooh

because random decisions are always the best.

everytime i think about it, my heart still skips a beat.
thank you for being so cute just the way you are. :)

won't see it coming when it happens,
but when it happens you're gonna feel it.

everything that's happening is not gonna be repeating itself.

love it, appreciate every bit of it.

so many things on my mind...

some making me smile from the inside,

some are worrying,

some i wish it hadn't happen,

while some are left rather ambiguous,

...strange feelings. 

wuwu~ 

Familiarity.

just suddenly missing you girls a lot again.


There are the things we get so used to,
and hope so badly for it not to change,
because one day if it did,
everything is going to feel so strange,
as much as the fear of what lies ahead is growing,
i understand that there are things that are meant to be,
however much i wish it will not come true,
i also succumb to the fact that it is never going to change.

And now for tax and leadership.

sometimes i can't help but to feel that every assignment completed is like a baby being delivered. the stress, the tension, the expectations and disappointments, the awkward this-is-not-how-we-usually-talk moments, the pressure and encouragement, everything all put into one... until the very moment you put that full stop to end the conclusion, it just feels damn good.

in one of our random conversations my mom actually asked, "who do you like working with most for assignments?" heh is there even an answer to it? there are assignment buddies who make me feel so secured, like i know with him/her nothing will ever go wrong, there are also the ones who amaze me with the way he/she analyses and gives opinions, the ones who are organised and just perfectly organised, the ones who can google better than google itself, the ones who are forever keeping everyone calm... but they're all good. sometimes too good that i know i've not done my part well enough. and i truly believe that apologies are nothing if they don't come with actions. so, yeah.

trust is such an amazing thing. it's like a silent bridge that completes whatever needs to be understood between two different souls...

*whoa never knew blog posts can be justified too. post-assignment-syndrome much!

Be grateful.

Instead of always hoping for more, thinking that you're disadvantaged, you'll find yourself a lot happier if you're willing to take the time to appreciate and be grateful with what you already have. Today while waiting for my mom after the audit presentation i saw this girl standing by the other pillar, and she was on crutches. not sure why but it didn't look like any leg injury, so i'm guessing it's something she has to live with :( when her car was here, she slowly made her way towards it, down the step and into the car after the driver pushed the door open for her. sigh. i wonder to myself how she would feel. how to not feel sad when her friends can all run and hop around; how to cope with the weird stares she might get; how to not feel bad for troubling people who care for her; how to still stay strong and not give up on her dreams. and then i figured, maybe all it takes is just to be appreciative of what we have. when you think you're lacking something, you're always also having something extra on the other hand...which you might have overlooked.

*

done with two assignments for the semester, four more to go! and i have to say i really enjoyed the process of both the assignments. doesn't really matter that we don't turn out to be the best, we've really tried our best. thank you to all the lovely group members who made the whole thing so much less stressful for me. all the positive energy you gave really means something to everyone in the group.

don't think i'll even remember that i'm actually on a sem break if i don't remind myself so x)

Things we don't see; things we don't say.

can't believe it rained so heavily out of a sudden! and i really haven't walked in such heavy rain for a long long time already... even with a big umbrellas, half of our body was completely drenched. for a moment it actually felt like we were on some secret mission fighting with the rain that continuously falls on you without mercy. the swimming pool was so flooded, everywhere else was wet we had to go to the gym room (no complaints since it's my first time there! except it's lacking fresh air and there's no way we could see the sky from there) but it's a different feeling altogether to be walking on the treadmill while talking to each other :) then when the heavy rain turned to drizzle, it was so nice to be standing with our feet dipped in the pool, talking under the umbrella. sad for the umbrella that was turned inside out by the strong wind though. still can't stop feeling thankful that the cigar didn't land on us :/ and thank you for dropping me home, sorry for opening your car door again and again there were too many things i wanted to tell you. aah how i wish i have four months of holidays too. then we can look for more meaningful things to do together.

so unconsciously...

To believe.

The difficult times are just there to remind us how much we should treasure the happy moments.

It's always been much easier accepting than rejecting.

When there's no absolute right or wrong, it's all up to us to make it work.


Am i just really getting too used to it?

Complementary.

happy old times. seriously, ROFL! xD

it was such a good long conversation with you yesterday:) love it how we both had so much to say we didn't know who to go first, how you were asking me questions that helped me reassured my thoughts, how you could understand what i was feeling, how you could complete my sentence before i even said it...

laughed too hard talking to you, the rest of the day felt so much better.

things we do not know, things we're afraid of knowing, things we can't bring ourselves to do...

i guess we'll just let them be:)

*

leadership presentation tmr woots! can't wait to get it done!!!!

Like magic :)

it's amazing how i was just thinking of you yesterday and you appeared today as if you knew i needed to hear from you.

*

on another note, i really need to do something to get rid of my stoning problem :(

Moving at the speed of light.

sho sho shoooo shleeepyyyyyy can die x___x

tried to take a nap in the afternoon but failed terribly,

eyes were closed, but the mind just wouldn't stop wandering around...

from IM SAQs to leadership assignment, audit assignment, to assignment grouping to the undone audit tutorial,

and then i just decided to get up and not nap anymore -_-

was thinking about everything at once and all of a sudden,

i realised it was only making the already difficult tasks seem unachievable :'(

an act that yields such low utility = not worth it at all.

*rubseyesandwakesuptoreality*

actually,

it isn't that bad after all.
thankful to the very positively-inclined friends around me and daddy who's so caring.

:)
cheer up pls!!

'Cause everything is never as it seems

it feels so nice to be listening to the sound of the raindrops falling,

especially like this...at night when it's all quiet,

then the rain slowly gets lighter, the sound gets softer and softer,

until the sound of stress from within becomes all is left to be heard.

sometimes i find it funny how i can so easily tell the people around me not to stress,
things will turn out just fine,
it's all up to how you see things,
and whether you believe in yourself or not,
but when i turn to myself,
all this stressful feelings are only making me feel depressed.
easier said then done.


sorry for making you look so sad also bloggy,
but you always make me feel better after writing them out.

i will try!

In a week's time...

leadership assignment's going to be due for submission. and soon after, it'll be audit's turn. then, it's the mid-sem break already O_O omgosh i can't believe how the days just went by like i didn't even live through them enough. whatever happened to no more doing work last minute! sighh feel like slapping myself. and the unmet deadlines for leadership assignment are making me feel terrible. :( so many things running on my mind now...but to most of them i've got no clear answer to it. i know i don't want it that way, but i just can't figure a good way to not let it happen. :( sobs. things can get pretty demotivating when i start thinking about all the bad parts of it. it's just wrong to let them blind myself from seeing the happy things around. so... :) :) i would rather choose to believe that nothing is impossible, as long as we don't lose faith.

3 amazing words.

three simple words like these can mean so much more than it seems.

it is with love,

the world becomes a happier place for everyone :)

Where there's a will there's a way

like how the elephants are cheering each other up :D

*

felt like bob the builder when i was installing the printer this afternoon,

but YAY mission accomplished!

and my favourite part of all is...

(y)

*
(sis halfway studying chemistry) "ming, without technology, the world would be much bigger..."
"huh? why?? technology takes up all the space?"
"you know, globalisation makes the world smaller..we can easily reach other parts of the world, so without technology the world would seem much bigger."

never heard of anything like this before Lol!
and you're saying i have funny thinking :P
your thinking also very funny okay! :P :P

*
it's not about how quickly you can get it done,

getting it right matters most :)

I guess i'll never know

i still strongly believe that everything happens for a reason,

nobody would do anything out of nothingness.

just tell me you've been truthful all along,

i can really accept anything.

you took my emotions on a roller coaster ride

like nobody has ever did before,

but it feels like a roller coaster running without a track.

*

on a brighter note,

sister's so cute, she bought me a blue and purple pen cause i said her pen's very nice to use :3

thank youuu la! a lot of sayangggg:):)

extra good luck for your trials tomorrow! physics and bio paper 3! woosh!:D

just received a text from candy which was supposed to be for heri,

and the last time we all received heri's text which was meant for candy.

gonna miss working with these lovely people :)

It could have been avoided.

if we were both able to give in a little and take a step back,

it definitely wouldn't end up the same way it did.

best part about it is that in barely 3 hours' time,

he would come back to me to borrow a pen,

and show me the shirts he just bought,

like it never happened before :)

siblings fight ftw.

i'm sorry gorgor!:(

*

and to my dearest most outstanding pei ying,

do take care and have a safe flight.

"When we meet 2 years later..."

so much would have changed! i cannot imagine :(

huei-wen might very well be somewhere at the other end of the world already,

we would have graduated,

our sisters no longer in bu4,

we should be able to drive by then (i hope! lol!),

maybe taller?

and hmm...i do not know.

2 years...

is just too long.

and this was one year ago, breakfast after a sleepover at hw's place :')

before you all started flying here and there.

time really flies.

Just do it!

to me, everyday is filled with surprises.

when things go according to plan, it's a surprise;

when things don't go according to plan, it's a different kinda surprise altogether.

be it pleasant surprises or the opposite,

they're what keep me looking forward to the next day.

gifts from wedding dinner never fail to amuse me :D

eeeeh really need to be more decisive!

little things can take me one entire day to decide -_-

just follow what the heart says,

you can never be wronggg :P

Time together isn't ever quite enough

hehehe tax assignment looks so easy peasy lemon squeezy! :D

can laugh at troubles one meh? wuwu.

*

and so...summer has come to an end,

byebye to the one who's been busy releasing refugees :'(

so glad i still made it in time to give you a call.

definitely gonna miss spending time with you again.

"aiyo. boleh one la.."

hope you're enjoying your longgg flight :)

this little creature on my sis's laptop. so cute! but it's getting flatter day by day xD

life is unpredictable. give it your fullest in everything.

The truth behind it all.

there are things no matter how hard i tried,

i can never seem to see through them,

can't tell what they really are,

can't decipher why.

and the little things come and go,

just enough to remind me that i am actually still puzzled.

i guess time will tell.

super nice when it's pitch black all around, and all you can see is them...

glowing tirelessly :)

Contentment.

yeaah, like appreciate everything and everyone that's around us while we still can.

still amused by what my sister did xD

instead of "transistors amplify magnitude",

she wrote "transistors magnify amplitude".

too good a mistake.
LOL!

Is this really what we want?

the conversation went something like this...

"go become VP Finance, i work under you"

"but i don't like to deal with money"

"err..then why are you in this course?"

good question.

in the very first place, i actually convinced myself into doing accounting and finance, neither because i love auditing financial statements nor keeping track of the stock market. i took such a long time before deciding taking this course. i kept thinking we only get to live once and this is it. whatever you choose, you'll have to live with it the rest of your life. one of the reasons that paved my way into this course actually came from what i fantasise about. i have this voice inside that tells me, i can become an accountant/work in a bank/whatever with my professional qualifications, and at the same time, still live my dreams. i dream of this one day when i can actually set up a charity that helps to somehow spread the joy we have to those who are less fortunate, so we can all be happy together. what's the point of being so super successful and all when you look out of the window to see that there are people around you who could have been better off  if you're willing to offer that little bit of help. it's so weird, i'm choosing accounting and finance only because i believe i can still have the time to go after what i really want to see myself doing in life. not because i love accounts. is this right?

coming back to reality, nobody knows what's gonna happen in the future... we'll just really need to have faith in ourselves and believe in what we want to do.

sheepy's gonna fight through BAF with me! rawr.
thank you ♥celine and ♥hui yii :)

Seriously?

that's if we're actually given the opportunity to experience it twice.

sometimes even though doing the same thing, it just might not feel the same anymore.

so sad the moon seems to be celebrating this mooncake festival all by itself,

neighbour who used to have bbq and light up many many lanterns decided to just stay in,

can't feel that sense of festivity anymore other than the very commercialised mooncakes.

miss the fish and dragon lanterns we used to have,

last year my sister and i still made it a point to play with the candles,

this year we only watched the moon :) 

just when we've decided to go all out to gain the team's trust,

things happen.

"Everyday passes so fast for me now, it's like i dun even have time to pause and think for a while..."
you always appear at the rightest time. 

THE JAR! XD

and i realised it's when i became willing to step out of my own comfort zone, i surprise myself with the things i never knew i could do. then there's this very satisfying feeling that comes by as a reward for all the extra effort put in. which makes everything worth it after all.

it's only the beginning of week 4. i don't know if it's the extra pressure that i'm giving myself OR everything in this semester is really tougher. well, maybe it's a combination of both.

harhar i think i'll be turning into an antisocial freak soon. rejected two outings this weekend with a heavy heart. sometimes i really hope you can understand. remember the last time you told me we still haven't met up cause i spend too much time with huei-wen they all. ouch T.T plus the deactivated facebook account, i really miss dropping random posts on your walls, and then waiting eagerly for the notification to show that there's a reply. ah well, sms is fine too.

* 

just this afternoon in the study room, my stressed up (from revising her chemistry) sister and myself went crazy over THE JAAAR! XD

"eeeeh chemistry so sien leh"

"ooooh...look what i've found"

"it's THE JAR!!!" :D

"raawr, my favourite JAR!!"

"what am i gonna do without you, JAR...."

"teehee, i gots thee JAR!" 

*stoning with THE JAR!* -_-

then she walked pass my table and totally camouflaged with my files!! so she was asked to pose with the files xD but she looked too much like she was posing, i told her to be more natural. she said "how to be natural with the two files?!!" xD and it became pretty chaotic until my whole stack of FM notes slipped out from the file tsk tsk. but i still lover her so much la. especially our telepathy-ness! (Y)

The End! :P

Decisions.

been thinking about it for a while...

this morning i thought i've finally found the answer,

but right now i feel uncertain about the decision made earlier.

got to be more firm with whatever i've decided on.

and most importantly,

have no regrets for the very decision made!

There is something special in everyone.

and everyone's special in their own way,

which makes every friend so unique,

so irreplaceable.

so much in my mind,

yet so hard to put them in words.

To be a happily stressed up person.

i always think that friends are like gifts for us to treasure and keep,

at times they can be rather fragile,

afraid of signs that we're drifting apart...

...but i believe as long as we're truthful to each other,

things will never go wrong.

and in case you didn't realise,

you've been a really great friend to me too,

i can never ask for more.

words like these, you wouldn't tell me face to face,

but when i heard it from her today,

i was smiling on the inside on my way back to Audi 7.

certain things that have already happened can never be erased from our memories,

but let's move on and look forward to the better things alright :)

after all, you are still who you are,

nothing has changed.

and it's okay if you're stressed up,

because i know it's really not an easy journey,

but promise me you'll be happy from the bottom of your heart.

finally met up with qing xian for lunch the first time since she came to Monash.

if there's ever a most-bubbly-person award,

i'll definitely nominate her!

it's unavoidable that everyone gets their down times,

but with friends,

it makes it all seems easier.

*i miss sexay beaann!

Positive thinking really does wonders.

when we find that things are no longer going the right way,

do something about it before we start feeling lost.

today during lunch, i was telling su ann the rice tasted nicer than the first time i tried it.

she told me because she's there xD

and then she mentioned what we taste can actually be affected by our mood.

i agree with that.

i think it holds true in many other different circumstances too.

basically, when we're in a good mood,

everything else feels equally good too.

avoiding something that you should be facing

is almost similar to leaving the situation on auto-pilot mode.

something you once held onto so tightly,

how did you just let go of everything so swiftly,

as if you were never once part of it?

with time,

we'll leave it all behind,

but it'll only be like memories kept in box with a missing lid.

on an unrelated note,

i actually really cannot not sayang you :)

for every action we take, there is a consequence to bear.

:)
this
ain't
easy.


there are times we want to make our lives more pleasant too,
but to achieve that,
we tend to lose sight of the other things around us.

by the time we realise,
it might be all too late already.


it didn't have to end that way.

Running out of happy thoughts.

when i opened this strip of paper before i went to bed early this morning, i thought to myself that today's gonna be a good day.

comp lab looked so different this morning compared to the last time i was there. so packed with people. then i bumped into yee wei who wanted to print her tax notes too so we printed it together. and she asked, "siewming, have you applied for your continuing scholarship?" that question really stunned me for a while. until after i recollected my scattered thoughts, i told her frankly that i'm not even confident that i can make it. but i'll try.

i really really really x101 hope that it is still possible. so many assignments this semester, the grouping matter itself is already causing enough trouble. as if we can balance the group members like how we balance our accounts right. and i remember reading it so clearly didn't you see it? i would have been able to accept everything in a much better way if it was brought up before i had the extra time to start imagining how we would make a great combination in completing those two assignments, especially IM T_T can we really do it with a missing member? and at a lot of points i felt i was being really sucky, so selfish and annoying only thinking about securing my scholarship. but it's not as simple as just a scholarship. it's somehow evolved into this little promise i really want to keep so that i can have the confidence i've always given my parents again. omgosh it's so terrible i never want another D ever again T_T just can't help but to feel worried. at least we're finally settled with all the groups. enough chaos caused. although i still can't read through your mind, but i feel it must have been a really tough decision for you to make. those words you said in front of that money eating machine today, they were so good to hear, really. 

already enough negativity for today....but on the way home, mom and i got stuck in the most terrible jam ever. like the car was literally stationary at around taman megah. only police truck/cars/bikes zooming past the insanely long line of cars. we were both so curious what happened, until we could finally see some police bikes, then the truck, followed by a couple of police cars and a group of guys standing by the road side with their hands on top of their heads, like they were under arrest. and there was the black sheet covering a guy who was lying on the floor that is stained red with blood. OMGOSH T_________T i do not know what happened. but i felt all uneasy after seeing it x_x

tell me how am i to think happy thoughts? :(

Do we really dream of what we think of in the day?

i was just hoping i could dream of the answer to this little question...ended up dreaming about jy's new house (which looked very similar to tse wei's neighbour's house!) with my cousin and his wife + baby staying there as if he was jy's brother. LOL, no comment.

so my advice for yesterday was....

so true. how are we going to know what's ahead for us if we never take the effort to walk through the whole road to check out what's in for us at the corner? even if it means something bad, at least we know we should never take that same road again if we're given a choice. 

i guess i know where i want to go this time. :)

and this morning i wanted to wake up early but sister took the alarm, so i left her a note to remind her to wake me up. (she wakes up at 5am to study for trials o_o i am actually feeling worried for her)

but this morning when i saw the paper on my table, it has got extra doodles! and they're sooo cute xD

the depressed fella =(

and then the happy fella =)

always looove my brother's drawings :D 

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and i got this one for today! 

jer venn's birthday party tonight? :)

btw ouuuuuch, i was hanging the clothes for drying..and when i took a step back, i felt something bouncy....T_T Ador's toes!!!!! he's always so quiet i don't even know when he's sniffing around next to my feet. poor bunny. sorry!! then after that he took down a whole sheet of newspaper from the oldnewspaper stack....as if he could read xD made all of us laugh so much, cuuuuute bunneh! ^^

Always expect wonderful things to happen.

i told myself i can only pick one advice a day. but i really couldn't wait till i get the next piece of advice... so yesterday night i waited till it's past 12am then quickly opened the bottle to pick one :P and ta-daa! and so i went to Uni this morning expecting all the most wonderful things to happen. as i wished and hoped, the day turned out pretty good :)


wonderful thing #1
reached Uni rather early today, cause most of the people are still at their respective kampungs (my mom was so happy that she didn't have to jam her way home!) and i promised to help su ann print her notes cause her printer emo, but so coincidentally my printer ink emo also yesterday night. until last night before sleeping i was so worried that the library's printer might be out of order again, then i'm doomed.

but wooh, i printed the notes at the comp lab this morning! and it was such a fun process don't ask me why :P


wonderful thing #2
initial plan was to celebrate steven and zhi sum's birthday at around 1.30pm after their group's discussion. so heyherng purposely made her group discussion earlier to accommodate. plus celine and hui yii who'll be joining too. last minute before audit lecture started, found out su ann wouldn't be able to make it back in time, but she told us to go ahead. i was quite sad la then, cause i really hoped she could be there (sorryyy♥) out of desperation, i texted denesh who was sitting the row in front, but he gave that equally dunno-what-to-do-now reply. so for one moment mr stanley was just talking but my brain really couldn't absorb anything. until after sms-ing hui yii, i don't know..talking to her makes the world goes round. figured out a new plan! with the risk that we might take up steven's group discussion time. but we really didn't know what else to do! something not-so-wonderful -.- i totally didn't think they would be sitting at the foyer!! stood behind the pillar in the middle of nowhere for some time till heyherng came to rescue me Lol.

but....in the end, celine and hui yii managed to join us in time, su ann came back just in time too, the lighter didn't fail on us, the candles were durable enough for zhi sum to have his blow candles moment too, we had enough tissue for the cake, took pictures with hui yii's awesome polaroid, and we were not late for class.


just wanna say, wonderful things do happen.          don't give up on them! :)

Develop love where hate has been.

have been trying to understand that little piece of advice ever since i opened it this evening. then dorie came chatting with me and she instantly made me understand it, unfortunately in the reverse way! there's been so many instances where people can develop hate where very strong love has been. or maybe it's not exactly hate hate, but to hate so that it makes it easier for them to forget about the love that once existed. 

let's just not hate anyone at all in the first place so we'll never have to find an explanation to this "develop love where hate has been" statement *living in denial* :P

but thank you jyy yee so much for purposely dropping by to pass this to me :) gonna be thinking about you a lot for the coming 100 days heh.