Changes.

so many things are happening, so many changes. in a couple of months' time, how are things going to be like? how am i going to face the day you're leaving to a place so far away :( it's true, the more memories together, the harder to say goodbye. 

since when did i grow this fear towards future? stay strong and believe that you can do it. sometimes all you need to know is that everything will eventually be fine. 

at times like this, my silly dream of hoping that humans could survive without sleeping is hitting me again.

cus WHOA, sooo much extra time if we cut the sleeping. provided we won't turn zombie the next day!

how long is four years? or rather, how short is four years going to be?

odd odd feelings, where'd you come from? nothing feels quite perfectly right lately. what's wrong. there goes my first week at work. new place, new people, the same me. time, would you please just slow down a little? i'm terrified. 

Random thoughts.

do you know how glad i was to see you like my picture on insta for the first time? :') i can't really explain that feeling, but it's like communication in a subtle way. 

do you know i cried so much after reading your messages? felt that familiar pain at my heart again. what am i still afraid of really?

why am i feeling so unwell today? could it be the dream last night? my younger sister flew away with a balloon D: such a ridiculous dream but i was so so sad. i cannot lose her.

do you know how happy i felt getting a simple message from you? thanks for making me laugh all these while. 

do you know how much i'll miss you after you leave. it's crazy just thinking about it. how more can we appreciate the time we have together? 

positive thinking can make so much of a difference, make things feel or seem much better. i can sometimes be too sentimental, but i'm also grateful to have that certain extent of positivity flowing in my blood.

ohyeah, it's 1st of March already. three more days till my first day at work. excites? definitely!