(1) it's longer than the usual one-month sem breaks i get, this time round i've got about two and a half months. hm... having more time also means more time for EVERYTHING. times with my dearest high school friends, times with my family, especially my younger sister and mum since they appear at home the most, times for random outings, more alone time for me to just sit, reflect, stone and ponder;
(2) i think part of me is still living in denial, thinking one day when the break ends i'll be going back to Uni to see all my friends and study with them again. but in reality, NO! i'm starting to work already. well, part of me is really excited, about finally being able to apply the knowledge or whatever i've swallowed all this while. i've always preferred working things out, making things happen. they help me digest the knowledge better. so yea, this is going to be a whole new journey i embark on to see more stories unfold, and be amazed;
(3) it's so much mixed feelings cuz i'm really happy my closest friends are all around at this point in time, but at the same time i'm also subconsciously counting down to the days they'll be leaving this familiar place. soon everything wouldn't feel so familiar for me anymore without their presence. i can already cry just thinking about it, how am i going to face the day and that moment itself when we bid goodbye... T.T why can't all the countries be a stone's throw away, :( really;
(4) this break didn't begin with a yippy yippy yay yay me, there were plans i made that could no longer be accomplished. usually i'll be all super hyperly energetic everyday when it's a holiday. this time i seem to be holding back that part of me. so i guess this break is also here for a special reason, for me to get things back in place before i start working? i can't be going to work with this state of mind; and
(5) this break is like a... gigantic u-turn in my life. turning point would be a better word, i've kind of reached the peak of my studying life now and moving on to the non-studying side of my life. so many things are going to be different, say work hours, people at work, goals to set, targets to achieve, etc. it's sort of like moving to a more serious part of life, not literally becoming more serious serious, but there'll be more things i have to consider, more decisions to make that will lead to different consequences, a steeper learning curve and more thoughts on what kind of life i'm shaping for myself.
one and a half month may sound like quite a lot of time still, but i know it won't be.... it's just going to fly past like how 2012 did. positive energehhh i need youu.
one and a half month may sound like quite a lot of time still, but i know it won't be.... it's just going to fly past like how 2012 did. positive energehhh i need youu.
P/S: i'm still not prepared for the day you're going to leave. i will never be.
