Like magic :)

it's amazing how i was just thinking of you yesterday and you appeared today as if you knew i needed to hear from you.

*

on another note, i really need to do something to get rid of my stoning problem :(

Moving at the speed of light.

sho sho shoooo shleeepyyyyyy can die x___x

tried to take a nap in the afternoon but failed terribly,

eyes were closed, but the mind just wouldn't stop wandering around...

from IM SAQs to leadership assignment, audit assignment, to assignment grouping to the undone audit tutorial,

and then i just decided to get up and not nap anymore -_-

was thinking about everything at once and all of a sudden,

i realised it was only making the already difficult tasks seem unachievable :'(

an act that yields such low utility = not worth it at all.

*rubseyesandwakesuptoreality*

actually,

it isn't that bad after all.
thankful to the very positively-inclined friends around me and daddy who's so caring.

:)
cheer up pls!!

'Cause everything is never as it seems

it feels so nice to be listening to the sound of the raindrops falling,

especially like this...at night when it's all quiet,

then the rain slowly gets lighter, the sound gets softer and softer,

until the sound of stress from within becomes all is left to be heard.

sometimes i find it funny how i can so easily tell the people around me not to stress,
things will turn out just fine,
it's all up to how you see things,
and whether you believe in yourself or not,
but when i turn to myself,
all this stressful feelings are only making me feel depressed.
easier said then done.


sorry for making you look so sad also bloggy,
but you always make me feel better after writing them out.

i will try!

In a week's time...

leadership assignment's going to be due for submission. and soon after, it'll be audit's turn. then, it's the mid-sem break already O_O omgosh i can't believe how the days just went by like i didn't even live through them enough. whatever happened to no more doing work last minute! sighh feel like slapping myself. and the unmet deadlines for leadership assignment are making me feel terrible. :( so many things running on my mind now...but to most of them i've got no clear answer to it. i know i don't want it that way, but i just can't figure a good way to not let it happen. :( sobs. things can get pretty demotivating when i start thinking about all the bad parts of it. it's just wrong to let them blind myself from seeing the happy things around. so... :) :) i would rather choose to believe that nothing is impossible, as long as we don't lose faith.

3 amazing words.

three simple words like these can mean so much more than it seems.

it is with love,

the world becomes a happier place for everyone :)

Where there's a will there's a way

like how the elephants are cheering each other up :D

*

felt like bob the builder when i was installing the printer this afternoon,

but YAY mission accomplished!

and my favourite part of all is...

(y)

*
(sis halfway studying chemistry) "ming, without technology, the world would be much bigger..."
"huh? why?? technology takes up all the space?"
"you know, globalisation makes the world smaller..we can easily reach other parts of the world, so without technology the world would seem much bigger."

never heard of anything like this before Lol!
and you're saying i have funny thinking :P
your thinking also very funny okay! :P :P

*
it's not about how quickly you can get it done,

getting it right matters most :)

I guess i'll never know

i still strongly believe that everything happens for a reason,

nobody would do anything out of nothingness.

just tell me you've been truthful all along,

i can really accept anything.

you took my emotions on a roller coaster ride

like nobody has ever did before,

but it feels like a roller coaster running without a track.

*

on a brighter note,

sister's so cute, she bought me a blue and purple pen cause i said her pen's very nice to use :3

thank youuu la! a lot of sayangggg:):)

extra good luck for your trials tomorrow! physics and bio paper 3! woosh!:D

just received a text from candy which was supposed to be for heri,

and the last time we all received heri's text which was meant for candy.

gonna miss working with these lovely people :)

It could have been avoided.

if we were both able to give in a little and take a step back,

it definitely wouldn't end up the same way it did.

best part about it is that in barely 3 hours' time,

he would come back to me to borrow a pen,

and show me the shirts he just bought,

like it never happened before :)

siblings fight ftw.

i'm sorry gorgor!:(

*

and to my dearest most outstanding pei ying,

do take care and have a safe flight.

"When we meet 2 years later..."

so much would have changed! i cannot imagine :(

huei-wen might very well be somewhere at the other end of the world already,

we would have graduated,

our sisters no longer in bu4,

we should be able to drive by then (i hope! lol!),

maybe taller?

and hmm...i do not know.

2 years...

is just too long.

and this was one year ago, breakfast after a sleepover at hw's place :')

before you all started flying here and there.

time really flies.

Just do it!

to me, everyday is filled with surprises.

when things go according to plan, it's a surprise;

when things don't go according to plan, it's a different kinda surprise altogether.

be it pleasant surprises or the opposite,

they're what keep me looking forward to the next day.

gifts from wedding dinner never fail to amuse me :D

eeeeh really need to be more decisive!

little things can take me one entire day to decide -_-

just follow what the heart says,

you can never be wronggg :P

Time together isn't ever quite enough

hehehe tax assignment looks so easy peasy lemon squeezy! :D

can laugh at troubles one meh? wuwu.

*

and so...summer has come to an end,

byebye to the one who's been busy releasing refugees :'(

so glad i still made it in time to give you a call.

definitely gonna miss spending time with you again.

"aiyo. boleh one la.."

hope you're enjoying your longgg flight :)

this little creature on my sis's laptop. so cute! but it's getting flatter day by day xD

life is unpredictable. give it your fullest in everything.

The truth behind it all.

there are things no matter how hard i tried,

i can never seem to see through them,

can't tell what they really are,

can't decipher why.

and the little things come and go,

just enough to remind me that i am actually still puzzled.

i guess time will tell.

super nice when it's pitch black all around, and all you can see is them...

glowing tirelessly :)

Contentment.

yeaah, like appreciate everything and everyone that's around us while we still can.

still amused by what my sister did xD

instead of "transistors amplify magnitude",

she wrote "transistors magnify amplitude".

too good a mistake.
LOL!

Is this really what we want?

the conversation went something like this...

"go become VP Finance, i work under you"

"but i don't like to deal with money"

"err..then why are you in this course?"

good question.

in the very first place, i actually convinced myself into doing accounting and finance, neither because i love auditing financial statements nor keeping track of the stock market. i took such a long time before deciding taking this course. i kept thinking we only get to live once and this is it. whatever you choose, you'll have to live with it the rest of your life. one of the reasons that paved my way into this course actually came from what i fantasise about. i have this voice inside that tells me, i can become an accountant/work in a bank/whatever with my professional qualifications, and at the same time, still live my dreams. i dream of this one day when i can actually set up a charity that helps to somehow spread the joy we have to those who are less fortunate, so we can all be happy together. what's the point of being so super successful and all when you look out of the window to see that there are people around you who could have been better off  if you're willing to offer that little bit of help. it's so weird, i'm choosing accounting and finance only because i believe i can still have the time to go after what i really want to see myself doing in life. not because i love accounts. is this right?

coming back to reality, nobody knows what's gonna happen in the future... we'll just really need to have faith in ourselves and believe in what we want to do.

sheepy's gonna fight through BAF with me! rawr.
thank you ♥celine and ♥hui yii :)

Seriously?

that's if we're actually given the opportunity to experience it twice.

sometimes even though doing the same thing, it just might not feel the same anymore.

so sad the moon seems to be celebrating this mooncake festival all by itself,

neighbour who used to have bbq and light up many many lanterns decided to just stay in,

can't feel that sense of festivity anymore other than the very commercialised mooncakes.

miss the fish and dragon lanterns we used to have,

last year my sister and i still made it a point to play with the candles,

this year we only watched the moon :) 

just when we've decided to go all out to gain the team's trust,

things happen.

"Everyday passes so fast for me now, it's like i dun even have time to pause and think for a while..."
you always appear at the rightest time. 

THE JAR! XD

and i realised it's when i became willing to step out of my own comfort zone, i surprise myself with the things i never knew i could do. then there's this very satisfying feeling that comes by as a reward for all the extra effort put in. which makes everything worth it after all.

it's only the beginning of week 4. i don't know if it's the extra pressure that i'm giving myself OR everything in this semester is really tougher. well, maybe it's a combination of both.

harhar i think i'll be turning into an antisocial freak soon. rejected two outings this weekend with a heavy heart. sometimes i really hope you can understand. remember the last time you told me we still haven't met up cause i spend too much time with huei-wen they all. ouch T.T plus the deactivated facebook account, i really miss dropping random posts on your walls, and then waiting eagerly for the notification to show that there's a reply. ah well, sms is fine too.

* 

just this afternoon in the study room, my stressed up (from revising her chemistry) sister and myself went crazy over THE JAAAR! XD

"eeeeh chemistry so sien leh"

"ooooh...look what i've found"

"it's THE JAR!!!" :D

"raawr, my favourite JAR!!"

"what am i gonna do without you, JAR...."

"teehee, i gots thee JAR!" 

*stoning with THE JAR!* -_-

then she walked pass my table and totally camouflaged with my files!! so she was asked to pose with the files xD but she looked too much like she was posing, i told her to be more natural. she said "how to be natural with the two files?!!" xD and it became pretty chaotic until my whole stack of FM notes slipped out from the file tsk tsk. but i still lover her so much la. especially our telepathy-ness! (Y)

The End! :P

Decisions.

been thinking about it for a while...

this morning i thought i've finally found the answer,

but right now i feel uncertain about the decision made earlier.

got to be more firm with whatever i've decided on.

and most importantly,

have no regrets for the very decision made!

There is something special in everyone.

and everyone's special in their own way,

which makes every friend so unique,

so irreplaceable.

so much in my mind,

yet so hard to put them in words.

To be a happily stressed up person.

i always think that friends are like gifts for us to treasure and keep,

at times they can be rather fragile,

afraid of signs that we're drifting apart...

...but i believe as long as we're truthful to each other,

things will never go wrong.

and in case you didn't realise,

you've been a really great friend to me too,

i can never ask for more.

words like these, you wouldn't tell me face to face,

but when i heard it from her today,

i was smiling on the inside on my way back to Audi 7.

certain things that have already happened can never be erased from our memories,

but let's move on and look forward to the better things alright :)

after all, you are still who you are,

nothing has changed.

and it's okay if you're stressed up,

because i know it's really not an easy journey,

but promise me you'll be happy from the bottom of your heart.

finally met up with qing xian for lunch the first time since she came to Monash.

if there's ever a most-bubbly-person award,

i'll definitely nominate her!

it's unavoidable that everyone gets their down times,

but with friends,

it makes it all seems easier.

*i miss sexay beaann!

Positive thinking really does wonders.

when we find that things are no longer going the right way,

do something about it before we start feeling lost.

today during lunch, i was telling su ann the rice tasted nicer than the first time i tried it.

she told me because she's there xD

and then she mentioned what we taste can actually be affected by our mood.

i agree with that.

i think it holds true in many other different circumstances too.

basically, when we're in a good mood,

everything else feels equally good too.

avoiding something that you should be facing

is almost similar to leaving the situation on auto-pilot mode.

something you once held onto so tightly,

how did you just let go of everything so swiftly,

as if you were never once part of it?

with time,

we'll leave it all behind,

but it'll only be like memories kept in box with a missing lid.

on an unrelated note,

i actually really cannot not sayang you :)

for every action we take, there is a consequence to bear.

:)
this
ain't
easy.


there are times we want to make our lives more pleasant too,
but to achieve that,
we tend to lose sight of the other things around us.

by the time we realise,
it might be all too late already.


it didn't have to end that way.

Running out of happy thoughts.

when i opened this strip of paper before i went to bed early this morning, i thought to myself that today's gonna be a good day.

comp lab looked so different this morning compared to the last time i was there. so packed with people. then i bumped into yee wei who wanted to print her tax notes too so we printed it together. and she asked, "siewming, have you applied for your continuing scholarship?" that question really stunned me for a while. until after i recollected my scattered thoughts, i told her frankly that i'm not even confident that i can make it. but i'll try.

i really really really x101 hope that it is still possible. so many assignments this semester, the grouping matter itself is already causing enough trouble. as if we can balance the group members like how we balance our accounts right. and i remember reading it so clearly didn't you see it? i would have been able to accept everything in a much better way if it was brought up before i had the extra time to start imagining how we would make a great combination in completing those two assignments, especially IM T_T can we really do it with a missing member? and at a lot of points i felt i was being really sucky, so selfish and annoying only thinking about securing my scholarship. but it's not as simple as just a scholarship. it's somehow evolved into this little promise i really want to keep so that i can have the confidence i've always given my parents again. omgosh it's so terrible i never want another D ever again T_T just can't help but to feel worried. at least we're finally settled with all the groups. enough chaos caused. although i still can't read through your mind, but i feel it must have been a really tough decision for you to make. those words you said in front of that money eating machine today, they were so good to hear, really. 

already enough negativity for today....but on the way home, mom and i got stuck in the most terrible jam ever. like the car was literally stationary at around taman megah. only police truck/cars/bikes zooming past the insanely long line of cars. we were both so curious what happened, until we could finally see some police bikes, then the truck, followed by a couple of police cars and a group of guys standing by the road side with their hands on top of their heads, like they were under arrest. and there was the black sheet covering a guy who was lying on the floor that is stained red with blood. OMGOSH T_________T i do not know what happened. but i felt all uneasy after seeing it x_x

tell me how am i to think happy thoughts? :(

Do we really dream of what we think of in the day?

i was just hoping i could dream of the answer to this little question...ended up dreaming about jy's new house (which looked very similar to tse wei's neighbour's house!) with my cousin and his wife + baby staying there as if he was jy's brother. LOL, no comment.

so my advice for yesterday was....

so true. how are we going to know what's ahead for us if we never take the effort to walk through the whole road to check out what's in for us at the corner? even if it means something bad, at least we know we should never take that same road again if we're given a choice. 

i guess i know where i want to go this time. :)

and this morning i wanted to wake up early but sister took the alarm, so i left her a note to remind her to wake me up. (she wakes up at 5am to study for trials o_o i am actually feeling worried for her)

but this morning when i saw the paper on my table, it has got extra doodles! and they're sooo cute xD

the depressed fella =(

and then the happy fella =)

always looove my brother's drawings :D 

*

and i got this one for today! 

jer venn's birthday party tonight? :)

btw ouuuuuch, i was hanging the clothes for drying..and when i took a step back, i felt something bouncy....T_T Ador's toes!!!!! he's always so quiet i don't even know when he's sniffing around next to my feet. poor bunny. sorry!! then after that he took down a whole sheet of newspaper from the oldnewspaper stack....as if he could read xD made all of us laugh so much, cuuuuute bunneh! ^^

Always expect wonderful things to happen.

i told myself i can only pick one advice a day. but i really couldn't wait till i get the next piece of advice... so yesterday night i waited till it's past 12am then quickly opened the bottle to pick one :P and ta-daa! and so i went to Uni this morning expecting all the most wonderful things to happen. as i wished and hoped, the day turned out pretty good :)


wonderful thing #1
reached Uni rather early today, cause most of the people are still at their respective kampungs (my mom was so happy that she didn't have to jam her way home!) and i promised to help su ann print her notes cause her printer emo, but so coincidentally my printer ink emo also yesterday night. until last night before sleeping i was so worried that the library's printer might be out of order again, then i'm doomed.

but wooh, i printed the notes at the comp lab this morning! and it was such a fun process don't ask me why :P


wonderful thing #2
initial plan was to celebrate steven and zhi sum's birthday at around 1.30pm after their group's discussion. so heyherng purposely made her group discussion earlier to accommodate. plus celine and hui yii who'll be joining too. last minute before audit lecture started, found out su ann wouldn't be able to make it back in time, but she told us to go ahead. i was quite sad la then, cause i really hoped she could be there (sorryyy♥) out of desperation, i texted denesh who was sitting the row in front, but he gave that equally dunno-what-to-do-now reply. so for one moment mr stanley was just talking but my brain really couldn't absorb anything. until after sms-ing hui yii, i don't know..talking to her makes the world goes round. figured out a new plan! with the risk that we might take up steven's group discussion time. but we really didn't know what else to do! something not-so-wonderful -.- i totally didn't think they would be sitting at the foyer!! stood behind the pillar in the middle of nowhere for some time till heyherng came to rescue me Lol.

but....in the end, celine and hui yii managed to join us in time, su ann came back just in time too, the lighter didn't fail on us, the candles were durable enough for zhi sum to have his blow candles moment too, we had enough tissue for the cake, took pictures with hui yii's awesome polaroid, and we were not late for class.


just wanna say, wonderful things do happen.          don't give up on them! :)

Develop love where hate has been.

have been trying to understand that little piece of advice ever since i opened it this evening. then dorie came chatting with me and she instantly made me understand it, unfortunately in the reverse way! there's been so many instances where people can develop hate where very strong love has been. or maybe it's not exactly hate hate, but to hate so that it makes it easier for them to forget about the love that once existed. 

let's just not hate anyone at all in the first place so we'll never have to find an explanation to this "develop love where hate has been" statement *living in denial* :P

but thank you jyy yee so much for purposely dropping by to pass this to me :) gonna be thinking about you a lot for the coming 100 days heh.