What keeps you going?

a pleasant reply from pn tang after more than a month, especially in the midst of drowning in figures from the cash flow statements. it's so sad to know that she's not teaching in bu4 anymore, i wonder what has happened to cooking club then.

haven't done this in a while already can't believe i cried this afternoon after coming home. thinking about how we were all like naive little kids during fia and in just another semester's time we'll be graduating already. thinking about how i will miss some of the seniors so badly. can totally film a clip on "meet my aaawesome seniors", you've got to meet them to feel the awesomeness! there's this super senior who's always so inspiring and would offer herself to cry with me like she could read my mind and know that i wasn't alright; then there's also a really cute animal senior who's always very positive and motivating and funnaay; and another who's forever so kind and helpful and would make sure that everything's fine till the end; and the list goes on. definitely great memories.


who says BAF got no friends. 

Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars?

why are some things gone just like that and i can't seem to get them back anymore. i was never ready for it.

somehow, worried about you.

sometimes, i amaze myself with the things i do.

What's never-ending?

and so we suddenly hopped into the topic of good cartoons over lunch today, totally reminded me of toy story 3 which made me laugh until cry and then cry until laugh all over again. luuurved it! then i realised i've got sooooo many cartoons/movies that i've always wanted but haven't had the chance to watch. too many o_o some of the ones mentioned like madagascar 3 (cuz ms mad said it's extremely vibrant and brings out the quality of perseverance in friendship aaaw), rio (which was mistaken as rango the lizard by esther haha) and arthur christmas (recommended by hyii). then there's the smurfs (ann's favourite), breaking dawn (because it feels incomplete not watching it after all the front episodes), the vow (although many said it's not up to expectation), justin bieber's never say never (i don't really know why, just curious), the avengers (the whole world's been talking about it!), thor (i wna know why my brother got obsessed with him), x-men first class (remember a lot of people saying it's niceee too) and i can't even recall already, so manyyy on the list! :O

two more weeks to finals! give it your best! :)

Without a script.

moments like these feel really awesome. we went over to gold this afternoon expecting a simple interview with Pn J and the kids just to get feedback on how sife has impacted them so far. who knew it would turn out to be so overwhelming because everything they said was so heartfelt. no interview questions prepared beforehand, no script provided and everything was just spontaneous. Pn J herself, kasim's father and aunty moi went on for a good 9 minutes giving their feedback.

it was really like some sort of moment of realisation. that so far on our side, we've been so busy getting members to be committed to the project, to come together and work the stock take out over three consecutive weekends, to get the costing for muffins sorted out, source for suppliers, get feedback and more feedback on how to improve on the muffins, and to convince people to take up the muffins from gold. and in the midst of all those busy stressful moments trying to rush assignments and take care of the project at the same time, there were times i asked myself if i was really doing the right thing. shouldn't i be giving my all to studies. the interview session today seemed to have answered all the doubts i had.

and the kids (well, not really kids anymore) at the centre are just too adorbz. they way they so naively believe in everything you tell them makes me feel like sharing my brain with them. if only a brain that's being cut into half would grow back like a lizard's tail. ohhh eeew bad example. but yeah, how would their parents feel when they see other kids growing and learning day by day? them special kids being special requires so much extra effort from the parents to take care of them, to protect them from the harsh harsh world, and to hope that one day they will be able to stand on their own even after they're gone. 

to be such a lucky girl, i feel obliged to love this life and everything around me even more!